New Year = Big Changes

Well, it is New Year's Eve, and I am sitting here contemplating everything that happened this past year and I am blown away.  This time last year my life was completely different.

First, I was extremely ill.  I couldn't keep any food or liquids in my body for more than 5 min.  I ended up losing the healthy bacteria and had to rebuild most of my immune system. Then I got a sinus infection that lasted for 10 months.  I have also been having some heart issues.  I am hoping that I will be able to resolve many of my afflictions and can have a much healthier 2013.

Second, I had a job.  The company I worked for had filed bankruptcy, but if anyone had told me then that our office would be closed, my friends would no longer live here due to being forced to relocate, and I would be unemployed I would never have believed it.  Yet, here I sit, jobless.  Fortunately I have something in the works and I believe it will change my life in a billion ways, making everything from this last year worth it.  (Prayers and happy thoughts are appreciated and desired please) I will give details once things are more secure.

Third, I had a person in my life whom I believed was and would be everything to me.  The way I felt when I was with them was like nothing I had ever experienced.  My doctor even loved them because even though I don't have high blood pressure, it was even lower after I spent time with them.  We had the same sense of humor and adored silly jokes.  The cornier the better!  We were both extremely sensitive and had gone through many very similar experiences in our lives.  We bonded over so much.  I would have done (and did do) anything for them.  No task was too great, from listening to stories of woe to renovating their entire house, I offered and did it all.  You'd think there would be some appreciation for that...you'd be wrong.  All I got was lies, betrayal, and humiliation.  I was then cast out due to my being upset with them for the lies.  None of it makes sense even now and I don't know where to go from here.  Most people say I should let go and move on, and I am in the process of that, but I need and want answers.  Am I going to get them? Probably not due to the fact that they are a liar, but I dedicated 3 years of my life to defending and adoring this person and putting up with so much crap.  I am hoping the universe will help supply me with the information I need so that I can protect myself better in the future.  I was completely blindsided, I can't let that ever happen again if I want to keep my sanity.  This is another thing I never saw coming and would have never believed.  I am just left to wonder for now, was any of it real for them or was I just a pawn they used and then tossed in the trash.

Fourth, I was in school.  I am not finished with everything, but I am done with Pima and just have to CLEP out of Algebra to get my Associates.  I will be applying to the University of Arizona this February and depending on my new job schedule, will start in the Fall.  I am nervous and excited and hope that I can afford to go (come on transfer scholarship!).

Lastly, I was not knitting.  It is very hard to knit when I am so tied up with school work and work work.  Yet I have decided I need to take the time.  I have missed it more than I realized and it is very relaxing and therapeutic for me.  I currently have something going on with the first joint on the middle finger of my left hand which makes things uncomfortable, but I am hoping I can work around that and not have to quit.  I am hoping it is not arthritis, but am worried that it is at the same time.  :-/  I will update once I know, but in the mean time I am persevering in making the socks for Jessie. :-)

So this is where I stand now.  On the precipice of all new adventures.  What will 2013 bring? I don't know.  I just need to keep my faith and believe that this journey will take me to where I belong.  Good things come to those who wait, and I've been waiting for quite awhile.  I just have a hunch that this will be the year of relishing in those good things! :-)

See ya next year!

Eileen
Purling Kitty

Where have I been?

Hey y'all! I know, I know I haven't blogged in a while. I couldn't even believe it myself when I saw that I last posted on March 19th, almost two whole weeks ago!!!! American Airlines has been kicking my butt! I can't even tell you most of what I've done in th last couple weeks other than work, eat, sleep, eat and repeat every day.

I will tell you about a visit I had from an old friend of mine. I've known this guy for over 17 years. I haven't seen him though since my wedding b/c he lives in Tennessee and I lived in Texas and now Arizona. He is an engineer who was doing a building inspection up in Phoenix and drove down to Tucson so we could have dinner together. It was good to see him and we promised each other not to go another 4 years w/out seeing each other. Hopefully we'll stick to that!

Another thing that happened is computer monitor issues. My monitor screen has turned yellow. I am going to buy a new cable cord to see if my cat chewing on it (the cord not the monitor!) is why it's gone wonky. Here's hoping I don't have to buy a new monitor.

I got my schedule for work for April 19th through June 20th. It is 4PM to 12:30AM Friday-Monday. I am off Tues-Thurs. It shouldn't be too bad b/c I'll have a day off with Len. It is going to be weird working nights after having worked early days for 6 weeks but I'll adjust.

Finally in knitting news my camera is still battery-less so alas no photos yet, but I am almost done with my second sock, I have knit 2 March mid-month KAL washcloths, and am making decent progress on my shawl. Overall, I'm pretty happy with what I have accomplished. All except my blogging of course which should start to get better. I am no where near as exhausted as I have been on the last 2 Fridays so I hope this is a good sign.

Thank you for reading this (if anyone still is LOL) and have a great weekend.

Eileen

This week was just a blur

Hello. Well, my first week of training is finally over. It is going well and I totally love this job. But I am sooooooo tired. I have to be up by 5:30 AM to get to work before 7:00AM then we work until 3:30PM and I get home by 4:00-4:30 depending on traffic. I then want to take a nap but if I do then I'm up until Midnight or later and have few hours to sleep for the "night". I think I am finally on a decent schedule but we shall see.

On the bright side. I have been knitting everyday. I work on my mystery shawl during breaks at work and have been working on my first sock in the evenings. As you read in my previous post I had some issues starting but it is finally coming out decent. I realized that I was knitting the sock inside out (which makes it a tight squeeze!) but b/c its a tube (and tubes are AWESOME!) I was able to just flip it inside out and continue on. I did the heel flap and gusset today and am now knitting the foot part. I have 3-4" to go before I start the decrease for toes. I really like it. There are some small glitches but it's to be expected. I am still proud that I am accomplishing it. I will take a pic of what I have so far tomorrow and will try to better document my second sock.

Thanks for being patient with my not posting. I hope I haven't lost all my readers (all 4 of you HAHAHAHA) by being away. Once training at work is done I will work 4 days on and 3 days off so I should be less exhausted!

Eileen

I am actually attempting socks!!

Hello all. Well as promised I am writing a new posting in less than 2 days. Yea me! Training @ American Airlines is going well. I got a 100% on my city code test. I was so nervous but I guess I really shouldn't have been. I turned the test in 3 minutes after I got it. I know that sounds fast (and it is) but I've always done that with tests. I stop studying the night before and then I just let the ink flow on paper and somehow the right answers (usually) magically come out and I do a quick review and just turn it in. I've never been one to hold on to an exam and stress over it. I do all my stressing before and then after while waiting for the results LOL!!! Then I had to go wait in the cafeteria and was shaking like crazy. It was really funny now that it's over. I think I will really enjoy this job. I like what I am learning so far.

Also, as I stated above I have started knitting socks. I was having such a hard time knitting in the round. I have realized that I was not connecting my last stitch to my first correctly. I don't quite know how to explain what I was doing, but I will try. After casting on my stitches and dividing them I was starting my round in the last stitch that I cast on and went that way around the circle instead of starting with the first stitch I cast on. I hope that makes sense. I'm not awesome like techknitter or the yarn harlot in the ways of making visual aids to explain what I am saying. But finally after taking it out 9 times I figured out what I was doing wrong and now have about an inch of cuff and it's nice and even and circular and not twisted and funky. So I learned something new. That is always a positive when knitting so woo-hoo. Hopefully I'll have some pics to post tomorrow.

Have a great day,

Eileen