It is time for an intervention....

I need to be forcibly removed from my computer. My husband said if I look today like I did yesterday when he got home (a couple hours late so it is partially his fault), he was going to unplug the computer and take it with him to work. He said nothing is worth you looking like a zombie. It's true I was drained.

He also said I looked sad, That is because I read on "I'd rather be knitting"'s site (see blogs I like) that her former students father had died in Iraq. He was a couple weeks away from coming home. That led me to think of my own brother Patrick who is currently in Iraq. I tell myself that he's been gone for 9 months and has been fine, so he'll be fine for the next 6 too. I think I tell myself that b/c I HAVE to believe that in order to make it through every day.

It's kinda like how I survive my Mom being dead too; I wear these signs on my back kinda like badges and sometimes when I am obsessing w/ Ravelry, or driving Jess crazy w/ my knitting questions, or laughing at something on TV, I forget those badges are there and then something happens and I all too suddenly remember. It's not like I am trying to forget, it just hurts sometimes to think about it. So, I guess I carried the worry on my face more than I realized yesterday. With that in mind I ask y'all to watch this video. My brothers unit was profiled for a piece on the Armed Forces Network. My brother is in many of the shots and also makes a statement to the camera. His name is Oaks. Let me know what y'all think.

Nostalgic mood/ Socks R Scary!!

Hello. Well today is a weird day for me. My mom died 14 years ago today and I have been waxing nostalgic at my husband all day. He then left for work and I decided to start my next project. I am knitting a blanket for one of my other brothers-in-law Martin. It has many different colors and I am doing intarsia so I have 9 balls going at the same time. So I have a totally organized chaos going right now!!!!! It is so funny but I just finished a project using size 13 bamboo needles and am now using size 9 whalebone circulars and the needles feel so darn small. I have measured them 5 times to make sure they were really 9's. I don't yet own anything smaller than a 7 but they just feel so darn tiny!!!!!

While knitting I decided to watch Knitty Gritty on DIY. I watched the sock episode. I don't know how I am going to ever get up enough courage to knit a pair on my own. It looks so darn scary. All those needles going at the same time and then you just use 1 for a while and then 3 and it looked like even 4, so would I need a 5th needle? Thank God it will be a while before I break down and attempt......

Well, I guess that is all for now. I love you Mom, I miss you, and I think of you every day.

Later,

Eileen